And I have been for 6 months now, but as I was driving to work today, somehow I was struck with that realization. I still feel like I should be 15 or 16 and occasionally I've stumbled around those numbers before being able to say, "19." It is the most bizarre feeling in the world. As a child, every birthday felt like an achievement - I'm ten now! My birthdays are still exciting events, but I wonder when it lost that childlike feeling of change and wonder.